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The parents are coming this Saturday. The house needs some cleaning before they get here.

I had this strange dream last night. I don't quite remember how it started, but a bunch of people and I ended up living in a skyscraper hallway of sorts. Of sorts because it was a hallway, but one about as big as our house with giant blue windows that arched to form a roof. The people were a mixture of adults and children from many different backgrounds, nobody was related in any way. We had all just felt some pull to this hallway full of cushioned couches.

We removed half of the couches and filled it with beds here and there, a few dining tables, a single computer (which apparently only I used) and a large screen TV. We all lived there relatively peaceful, going to work and living life as if it were normal.

Then somehow I ended up in St. Louis alone and getting my wheelchair repaired by this near six foot tall 275-315 pound man with brown curly hair, blue eyes, and a brown beard. Every once in a while we'd touch hands and giggle. Then we somehow ended up running into each other on EverQuest II, I asked him out, and he gave me a new battery charger for my wheelchair.

I call up my sister to pick me up and Chuck answers rudely wondering how I ended up in St. Louis. Then I search for the guy to tell him it was me who asked him out and that I may be late in getting home in time to meet him. I also wanted him to come at a later time. His EQII Character's name was Snafodil.

I need to fix this loneliness problem I have.

Any of you ever encounter an old friend online that you really wanted to reconnect with, but they seemed not to want to reconnect with you? Someone you felt you used to be really good friends with, but they may not even remember your or if they do they pretend they don't? Or are just too "nice" to say "Sorry, I don't want to be friends." and decide to say and/or do nothing in hopes you'll forget?

I think I may have encountered my first, and it's bothering me.

I thought my first was a year ago. There was this guy in college who I immediately struck up a friendship with when we found out each other was gay. Sadly, it was cut short when I decided to go to California with my parents. Then, a year ago, I found him on MySpace. So I send a friend request but get no acceptance or denial until six months later. He accepted me explaining he isn't on MySpace much.

That hadn't bothered me so much because we had really only known each other two months. I figured if he didn't remember, he didn't remember.

Well, recently (I'd say three weeks ago), I saw an old friend from high school when she commented on a mutual friend's status on FaceBook. We had been friends the whole four years of high school, and she was an awesome person to be friends with so I sent a request.

And nothing, no denial or acceptance. Not only that, but my news feed picks up her status updates despite there being no acceptance or denial of the request (I can't even reply to them). I suppose what bothers me is that there is no denial or acceptance. I could deal with being denied. But I can't deal with someone doing nothing in hopes of me going away.

Maybe I am being overly dramatic here. It just seems like she wouldn't miss the request since everyday her status goes on my news feed on FB. Part of me is screaming at myself in my head not to be so whiny. It has been almost ten years now. Yet this keeps bugging me.

Edit: If anyone wants to connect on FB, here http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/jerry.conner2?ref=profile

OK, today has kind of sucked for the most part. I'm tired, got a headache, and spent two hours today trying to get my Internet Connection working.

At least my wheelchair is fixed.

Wow, it's been a month!

So the week hasn't been half bad. Yesterday could have been better, no use in complaining since it would not change anything.

Last Saturday was our Great Grandpa's 100th birthday party. I didn't get to say hi to him, unfortunately, since he was surrounded by people. As soon as I was about to say hello he went home early. It was also a family reunion so we ended up hanging with our relatives for an hour before we left. Not much to note except for the ordinary greetings we all find ourselves saying and the ordinary catching up talk. Everyone seemed to like my bowler hat.

Monday, Tony came over. We watched A Clockwork Orange. One of these days we're going to do something other than hang at my house and watch movies. It was chilly out and he was tired.

We went out to lunch today as well. Mexican food!

Parents were visiting for the past week. They still haven't adopted Julie as far as I know (unless they did and just didn't bother telling us). They bought her little brother, Oscar. They're not adopting him.

Uncle Ron also visited and we all went to the zoo again. Not much else going on lately unfortunately.

My sister's birthday was on the seventh, and it went bad.

Chuck promised her he would pay for a new tattoo for her first thing that morning. Instead, he talks about cooking breakfast then proceeds to procrastinate cooking it by talking about it more. Next he ends up talking on the phone for half an hour. Then he wastes another fifteen minutes online, then more time talking about breakfast. Finally he leaves to buy some biscuits and milk so he can make biscuits and gravy, but he takes an hour to do what should only take at most half an hour to get done.

So he makes breakfast but then Shelly's friends come over and they can't leave. Also, did I mention they woke up at eight AM and it was eleven AM when breakfast is done? An hour later, Shelly and I go to Sam's Club to get crab and steaks for the Barbecue since bills had killed me this month and I couldn't take her to dinner. Now, this (no restaurant) doesn't disappoint her.

What disappoints her is that when we get home Chuck suddenly picks that day to get his trailer ready for when he leaves the next morning. That day when he had the whole previous week to get it ready. That day despite Jimmy telling him he needed to get it ready before then because it is my sister's birthday. Finally, that day because Chuck said he'd barbecue. Shelly had to cook her own birthday dinner.

Finally it's 7:30 at night and Shelly reminds Chuck if we're going to the drive-in, we need to get ready soon. She had been talking about the drive-in all day long and we needed him to drive the car up there since I have to sit outside the van due to the front part of the roof being to low for me to see. The car was so I could hear the movie.

Well, Chuck says he needs to get something at Lowe's and he'll be back in fifteen minutes. No biggie.

An hour later, he's back with DVDs he got at McDonald's. It was too late to go.

Today was Schwag Fest but we didn't go. My sister wanted to go but Chuck changed his mind and didn't want to pay.

Truth be told, I was kind of relieved. Two days without a bed would not be good. I only agreed to trying it out because she wanted to attend Schwag Fest. Yes, we had a futon but no flat even ground for my Hoyer Lift.

I am BORED! I hate boredom!

My parents bought me a new computer screen, WOOT!

Clicky the link.

http://jerrbear2481.mybrute.com

I got Shelly on EQII, yay!

So, if these budget cuts to home service care pass in Illinois, I wonder if I should move out of state? I'd probably need to save up for a year or two :C(

Finally transferred the files I wanted!

Was at Home Depot today and saw someone that looked familiar. Then it hit me, he was my next door neighbor when we were kids. On the street I'm living on now.

But as with anyone else I recognize, we said nothing to each other.

My parents visited from Sunday to Thursday. They surprised me with a new computer. Problem is, as much as I love it I still have a computer case and processor in my room. I know they mean well, but I still have to complete that computer.

Just may take me a little longer considering I love this new one they got me. 300 GB hard drive. Athlon 64 x2 3 GHZ Processor. 3.5 GB of RAM. It's a great early birthday gift! I should look for the documentation online, though.

Anyway, it was a great week. They bought the foster kid, she's 1 year old and seems to love everyone. Dad took me to see Star Trek.

Sister's got a headache and is yelling at me when I need help. Her boyfriend won't help because he only helps me with certain things when she's not here. His words.

Damn computer won't let me log into EQII because it needs more RAM. Stupid wheelchair is supposed to be fixed but it's even shakier when it moves than before.

Today sucks.

New clothes for my EQII halfling:

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